A day? Linear? Cyclical? A speed bump? We’ll know, we’ll never know. It’s as if our lives our wormholes into moments… and that’s all that we know. Even memory betrays innocence of the hour. So, I like this because it opens the reality to the ripple of the moment and its possible affect!
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When the time is right is it time to go? Is it time to stop? When is right? Do I have another hand elsewhere ready to say no now this time?! Oh wait that’s my hand. Experience in time is a wonderful,funny thing to my. My joy to live my time is right when? Whenever I say it is. When is it your time to do whatever?!
In death I hope to enjoy the sweet taste of mg time. Is it up? Ill ask myself! Is it time now I become that which I am, spreading my rusted bones across the hazel skies. The sparkly bits of the child’s eye in the time of her first lick of a tasty treat to the first spark of hate. It was her time. A speck of moment. A circle wrapped in amber frazzled hair whipping at my face again and again. So cold. I’ll be with my bones until the end of now which hope and joy recedes to the back glasses of the rippling cocktail of life, spilling over, whilst those who embrace the death of their life take a sip and hope in the moment to realize they are a Phoenix.
I’ve been thinking a lot about positive and negative energy in regards to science, spirituality, and humanity. And I think there is a significant path to follow when we consider a positive ion bonds with a negative ion. I think the Ying Yang has the balance right. It’s not about feeling good or feeling on the “right” path. Rather, it’s being on the wrong path with the right attitude or the right path with the wrong attitude. Which would you chose? Then then of neutrons! Now that gets me. Is this simply the essence of life?! That which hold all together as energy flows, teaches, exchanges, and even changes! Perhaps! Consider this when working with earth elements, as they ionic charged particles mashed together to hold, to be pretty, and to have a function!
A noiseless, patient spider,
I mark’d, where, on a little promontory, it stood, isolated;
Mark’d how, to explore the vacant, vast surrounding,
It launch’d forth filament, filament, filament, out of itself;
Ever unreeling them—ever tirelessly speeding them.
And you, O my Soul, where you stand,
Surrounded, surrounded, in measureless oceans of space,
Ceaselessly musing, venturing, throwing,—seeking the spheres, to connect them;
Till the bridge you will need, be form’d—till the ductile anchor hold;
Till the gossamer thread you fling, catch somewhere, O my Soul.
Shake my hand. There you take my residue. It’s unavoidable to not exchange energy by something as simple as eye contact. It says “I see you”. It validates a person. Likewise, when we don’t look at a person or whatever cultural exchange of energy, we “offend” or “deny” the exchange. But, is that so wrong? I must say I do not like to be hugged by just anyone. I’ve felt my energy being sucked out of me by certain feeders who lives only to make themselves more energetic than everyone else. This is power lust essentially and lack of self. My power is in me and nothing more or less. But together we make a vibrating, extended web of energy that if not met with wisdom can harm or hinder someone. Not just intentionally feeding on the energy in the room, but having a bad day and dumping on your coworker, or spouse. Making promises you don’t keep, entering someones space after you have yet calmed down from an intense phone call, or manifesting an action with out thought or conviction cause a negative ripple of residue scattering down until it’s burnt out or builds up. Who knows which. That’s why it’s important we all take responsibility for our personal space, our thoughts and intentions, and how we look, touch, and think about other people. Yes, maybe you wanted to buy your boss a coffee, but was it just to hope she’d burn her lip?! Deep inside we need to ask ourselves “why am i doing this?” and also “why am i with these people”. Do you want to be the one accepting the coffee?! Not me. There are ways to protect yourself from these negative daggers through mental shields and simple energy blocks but when you do that you may miss some goodness too. So discretion advised!
Family is irreplaceable but that doesn’t mean you have to spend everyday with them or week or month. In today’s culture, we do not foster a familial setting. We have severe individuality for the sake of freedom, which isn’t bad but we’ve lost the know how to honor culture, energy exchange, and the true meaning of the person from the inside as a being among other selves. Rather we see them as a worker, or “It’s moms birthday I’ll give her a call”. The residue of tradition lies in us all as we crave love from our family, friends, and others, whether we want to admit it or not. This spherical web is more spread out from one “point” to another. But since there is no such thing as a point, we must admit that this sphere is in fact pulling within itself because we yearn for the other “point”.
I’ve never agreed with the theory of relativity and that’s why. Space and time are not married. We live outside time and are members of spacial bodies. These bodies do pull for other bodies and are pulled by gravity, sure. But when the coming together of these “points” of say a love, the result is one. Theories go one from here as to what happens to matter. I like to think that all these spread out “points” will be one in an unwebbed, mass of vibrating, energy of whatever residue is combined.
Because of this, rather becoming one, imploding into a worm hole, or exploding into beyond, we need to try and watch the residue! Check intention, take responsibility, create the whole self and not take from it.
I just did a cleansing ritual for this Harvest moon, and I realized how much residue of others I have been dragging around and pulling towards me while other of that nature gravitated and those wary enough repelled. It wasn’t horrible residue. Just a bit of sadness and a splash of insecurity. And though I’m sure my journey will be littered with negative residue, this only balances the ying and yang. We can not have positive with out a negative, folks! But I don’t advise robbing a bank so a cop can gain glory through an arrest and declare yourself “well balanced”! Uhm, no feel the vibrations of each action and you’ll see the human crisis of not addressing residue, and acting irrationally to rob a bank which creates a need for a residue cleaner. Negative energy can be experienced in healthy life trials that do not have to send you to jail! Though, some people may need this. I would assume or it wouldn’t be happening.
So until we take responsibility for the residual affects we have in our thoughts, intentions, and actions. We will continue to paw at the ball of yarn mewing for mothers milk. Maybe we should call our moms!
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I can not find a good sample of essential oils! I don’t want to spend the money for the very good, edible quality, but I don’t want the cheap kind you rub all over your body until someone comes and licks it off. Any one out there with suggestions would be welcomed! Oils are essential. The construction of awareness changes when we use elements of the earth or energy. Anything really affects us more than we let on, even other people. That’s why it’s always important to choose your friends wisely. Though we don’t like to be lonely: it is okay to be alone. Not that I hermit in my room messaging hot lavender into my calf muscles until I’m suddenly no longer lonesome. Ah my oily friend! No. Rather remember to explore, initiate, and protect your experience because everything has a consequence. Consequence are the experience from choices, action, or expulsion of energy that never really happened with in the world of being. It’s only a cognitive recollection once the energy is secreted. The amount of displacement can never be equal to the moment it was before, so in the mass of things: we are an entire experience walking in consequences all day long. We can not go back in time, and tomorrow will never comes, And, today isn’t happening: it is the consequence of the past and the hope of the future immeasurable, fleeting, and passive. What surprises me is how we can be so aware in the moment though the moment, in out minds as now, never really comes to fruition. We never quite get “there”. Alanis Morisette’s song “Incomplete” organizes this politely, beautifully, and deliciously, and, perhaps a bit oily. Anyway I’mi in need of some essential oils with energy properties that “capture” the essence of their energy in that moment and let them affect me. Again, I will not be home alone in my room cryptically doing everything and nothing. I promise to take my oils about and wickedly entice people to share in the experience if only for the “moment”. But like everyone else, I’ll find myself alone at night behind my eye lids waiting for the mourning; always waiting. Though, I will be laugh in my belly behind plastered lips, slacken limbs and vein seeing eyes for the “moment” in my mind that is mine as it is never anyone’s the same. And as the memory slowly slips from my well oiled brain into the nightless night, I’ll forget to remember and forget to reminded myself to recall leaving only the echo residue of a charging, chanting chuckle headed for a hollow.
Like water wishes well to our bodies, it evaporates into the air, brushing our skin or flowing out our insides leaving residue of what was never water all along. We bathe daily in the coils of energy created by our words and wishes, if never for a moment but for all eternity. I hope the oil separates my watered down, negative residuals and drags this polluted hope to the bottom of my have full cup. And, my cup with be ever full for the moment. Help me paint my pillow with oils that my sense may chase the echo with a bit of delight!
Side note:A storm is coming to the DFW area. It’s in the moon tonight! Grab your children!
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The thing that baffles most people is simple why or reason. We usually can figure out how, or what, or who, but the sparsity of why beckons humans to run to a corner and demand an explanation. Within the definition of many institutions we can find our corners more narrow or broad respectively, never the less, humans place themselves in these corners whenever they ask why or desire a reason. But, is it wrong?! Surely, there are people who don’t dare as question what is. They generally “go with the flow” and, often, are a bit dull. They are what I call “room fillers” because they are important for the energy and essence of human beings as their sheer simplicity and naivety counter acts the luring harps chords of reason. It is the desire and envy that become the definition of “wrong” or anti-human aspects. And, I mean these aspects to be of their extremity. Should naivety be questioned for it’s severity of participation in humanity it is only less disarming because it creates a type of anti-naivety by simply being what is. Whereas, desire and jealousy in their aspects do create a sort of anti-desire, which is repulsion. And, it is in the creation of the antithesis of the negative aspects of these human quests that provoke yet another possibly destructive aspect. This is why reason becomes so delicious, because it can never be tasted even to the point of gluttony or negativity. We can not know too much because we do not know too little. It’s in the balance of creating our corners that keep us safe from the reality of how much we really don’t know. And because of this, we’re often surprised by the dark aspects expressed by others because from our corner of knowledge we attempt to project and expect goodness and light therein. When a girlfriend leaves for another or a child is abandoned, we stand in our corners and demand or cry out “why?!”. “Why do you not love me?!” “Why god did you let this child experience this?!” Most people find reason in a greater good, or higher purpose. And this is precisely my point, that in knowing we find what we don’t know, or can’t know. When a solution or institution or reason surface our awareness, it will simply entertain more of what we don’t know. Humans that live in the naive contentment of the unknown are not burdened by their inability to satiate any resonating desire or hunger for knowledge. In their corners, the corners don’t exist or are entirely boxed. It’s really a matter of knowing that there can not be corners or boxes within reason or the why, and, thus, in their simple existence they’re never panged to seek nourishment because they don’t feel their hunger. It exists. It is a natural part of humanity to wonder why and find reason, but I believe we can chose to entertain what we want in our corners or what may stab us in the back later. The balancing line of the known and unknown, defined by the life and death of awareness, constructs the necessity for institutions, friendships, and hope. All of which are below.
Not in this picture haha. No, this is a picture of me wondering why the past never happened, and the future will never come. I looked at my jewelry and the hole in my back and realized I had been in my own corner with blinders to truth. But, there’s no excuse because I should have known that the natural order of things would lead the least expected. Though if I were to have known what would have happened then there wouldn’t be aspect of the need to know. With necessity, we are full and nothing needs us.
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What exactly is love?! Toni Morrison says that it’s one of the most damaging things to human psyche. And I agree. Not because I’m antipathetic, love only presents itself for an immeasurable moment in existence; one I think we are rarely aware of (if it exists at all). And just as this birth of love (not as a feeling or fabric but as a type of energy relative to energy or chemical), it suddenly bursts forth from its beating heart a steady, reaching love lusted hand and limbs as legs, dangling, angled to the direction of self or need. Does humanity by definition then disempower love?! Can we even name a thing we say exists?! Isn’t claiming to have such love in itself counter intuitive to what love is: selfless. I don’t mind defining what energies or chemicals (whatever you wanna call them) as love or light. But, I warn with a wary heart full of limbs to remember that it is often love that is the catalyst to war. Define the war in which ever way best. But you can not have the blessedness of this most sanctified positivity to be experienced, within this human form (as much we know) with out expecting some sort of antithetical resonation to, or possibly from, self or psyche. Ah, to strike a balance with how we love others and how we love ourselves! I’m going to chew on that with these moist, hungry lips that say these words: I love you.
Space and time. Humans tell each other places to meet and at what time. This achievement and expectation is a sort of cryptic message: “I am alive”. If you are stood up then “I am not alive”. Perhaps this doesn’t make sense, but think about the emotions typically elicited from such experiences. How targeted is self being! How can the geometrical point then degrade us? And to what extent, if my meeting with you is derailed, because I have something better to do? Weights and balances are the formation of human morality. What we ingest is only what we know, and knowing it doesn’t make it fabric. No, it makes it a point. A point in this thing of geometry. But I warily suggest that this geometrical disposition plots merely human relevance, being sacred at the linear possibilities they entail. In attempts to amend my mere point (yes a pun), perhaps there are no points at all. Is geometry not the basic aspect of physics? And what says the human to the being (assuming he’s alien though such human examples can apply in different setting) he happens upon in a point of meet at the human level or measured scale? “Ah welcome to this point, let us chat and be on our way”? What says the being to this human? “I checked your human patterns and it crossed referenced with my ethereal measurements that I may, just give me a human balance…angel will do, meet at this ‘date and time’ that we may have this experience. It’s been worthy of my purpose, and I depart into my world. I’m late for meetings” “Ahh, good bye, sir Angel.” How is it that humans can draw geometrical references to their relevance while claiming that various beings are there to help by being many places at once and at anytime, if time and space are relevant. These are just things we say, because we can not be were we’re going, do not understand where we are, and can not be where we’ve been in it’s fullest. The human designation of time and space appear to me to be completely moot. Because if time and space exist for us by prescription to necessitate interaction with the dead, spirits, and even other humans then it entirely ceases to exist. Not only because you can not measure a moment in it’s fullest “accuracy” ever, in comparison to the nature of a point never being a point as a point isn’t a dot or anything known like time. If it is imagined as a dot then it is made up of cellular type structure (to give you a picture of how the line or dot can exist as it needs a thing or human to place it) to signify where it is located (space) but never ever can there be real space or a tip, for a lack of better word. There is either an entire infinite mass within this dot or tip, or it can not exist. If there is no point of reference, time and space wouldn’t exist because the theory is dependent on the human creation of what we finitely know to label it or balance it. Or perhaps, within everything we find, we find everything and therefor nothing or, more palpably, everything. Even for the most atheist, or whoever believes only in human existence, this is easily applicable. You can add a different dimension to the relevance of geometry to apply it in that aspect of existence or in another. I don’t care. If there is life, there is death. If there is matter, there is anti-matter and so forth. But, my point is that what is sacred is everything (much like a sphere, for simplicities sufferings) or just maybe sacred is nothing. Sorry to burst your bubble. Get it? Bubble?!
“I think therefore I am.”
-That one guy who wrote all those things.
It’s too late for me to erupt… I was in bed a long time ago, when i died.
Wanna hear my thoughts on reincarnation?!
Soon perhaps…. yawn! Goodnight!