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Thyroid Storm

Well, this has been the most eventful new year ever! I didn’t declare any resolutions but opened my mind and heart to the haps of life in the “happy” of the new year. And so they began, I had a blockage and lost A LOT of weight. Concerned that the medications weren’t helping and possibly cancer, my husband takes me to the ER. There they find the blockage, and I don’t have cancer! This is a burden off my shoulders like no other and feel like I could dance and sing though I’m still gaining meat on my bones!

After this event, my thyroid must have decided my body needed help and began to go into 6th gear. Yes. Thyroid Storm. For a few days, I thought perhaps it was just weakness from the blockage, until it became too much. Thankfully my doctor let me see him quickly, and with out hassle and gave me the treatment for the Thyroid Storm. Why not rush to the ER since it can be fatal you may be wondering, well I haven’t insurance! With in 48 hrs of thyroid suppression, I could move again! Think! Feel! Smile! I was so shocked that such a thing as a thyroid could, BOOM, freak out and hitch hike on a roller coast I’ve not been riding.

So, during these times you find out who your true friends are. You find out that “I care for you” may mean “I’m just nosy, bored and jealous” or “I have no life”. It could mean “You mean more to me than my job” or “I’ve cancelled all my plans for you”. And, all of these I have experienced. I thank to cosmos for my good sense to read the signs and know what the universe is telling me. It’s telling me to be ALIVE. It’s telling me of humanity. It’s tell me that I have every right to be a nice person and ask a question nicely, but I don’t have to be yelled at and try to make it right. There is no living by living in the realm of the oppressors. Oppression of my thyroid was beyond my control. And, oppression from humanity, economy, and such are also uncontrollable. But, we have the choice to walk away: middle finger up if you feel so obliged but I could care less. When I see a human “caring” out of self indulgence for the sake of whatever they stand to gain, I can not rush them to the ER. No. But, I can lessen the ripples of the echos in this web of life but walking the path of self awareness and as best open to freedoms as I can, with knowledge and love that soothe the tremors of humanity. And, I think the catalyst for those who betray, lie, or become aggressive and hurt in anyway is unhappiness. Now that is a dose of energy I do not wish to bath in. Instead, I embrace my shadows and weaknesses for what they are and hope they help me keep afloat on this river unwinding. Now, if my thyroid tries to drown me, well then I will go to the ER hehehehe

So, beyond that, I have been dreaming up art pieces and spending time with my little gymnasts and teaching the idea of virtue and morality. For like my 6 year old says “All things are imagination and are not real until we imagine them to be so.” And the imagination of love and war, make for interesting convo. Hm. Please respond to your theory on these two elements and their fabrication, for I must rest my weary head! Until soon 🙂

 

Lore

 

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Raising Magickal Power

Sometimes it’s not what we think or feel but HOW we think and feel that matters.  Do we respect our bodies?! And others?! Yes, you can ask too much of someone, manipulate obligation by guilt, only leading towards loss of personal energy and theirs!   It’s far more easy to allow yourself to be sad and follow your path, knowing there’s a light at the end of the tunnel than to fight it!  If you have a cold, stay in bed and  not pass the negative drainage around! All these splash in the pool of the collective. These being actions from our estimations of ourselves.  So, I suppose again… Selfish power may include raising light energy for yourself, but are you hacking a cough at you coworker while you meditate at your office?! I’m a big fan of consequence because variables and probability are so fascinating, in that; they never run out.  There’s always chance.  How do you Hap?!  Thus for my Happy New Year, I intend  to let the powers that be Hap within respect of others and healthy boundaries of course.  But, I want to see what HAPpens, when energy isn’t about self seeking light, but about simply being!  So, maybe I will do art and not mop today, or tend to my garden as the fridged sun tickles my skin!  And, my heart will not be worried about obligatory responses, but rather will sing, and I’m pretty sure consequently time will slow down enough so that I’ll have time for a quick mop.  Time lessens probability of energy raising when you delve into the sludge of fear or worry and tends to feel like you’re dragging along, but, yet, you feel you have no time!  The thing is there’s is no such thing as time! So, sing your heart and you’ll find the energy build and the time will soar at whatever pace you wish manifest allowing the Haps. Let’s see what’s in store this year!

Raising Magickal Power.