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Thyroid Storm

Well, this has been the most eventful new year ever! I didn’t declare any resolutions but opened my mind and heart to the haps of life in the “happy” of the new year. And so they began, I had a blockage and lost A LOT of weight. Concerned that the medications weren’t helping and possibly cancer, my husband takes me to the ER. There they find the blockage, and I don’t have cancer! This is a burden off my shoulders like no other and feel like I could dance and sing though I’m still gaining meat on my bones!

After this event, my thyroid must have decided my body needed help and began to go into 6th gear. Yes. Thyroid Storm. For a few days, I thought perhaps it was just weakness from the blockage, until it became too much. Thankfully my doctor let me see him quickly, and with out hassle and gave me the treatment for the Thyroid Storm. Why not rush to the ER since it can be fatal you may be wondering, well I haven’t insurance! With in 48 hrs of thyroid suppression, I could move again! Think! Feel! Smile! I was so shocked that such a thing as a thyroid could, BOOM, freak out and hitch hike on a roller coast I’ve not been riding.

So, during these times you find out who your true friends are. You find out that “I care for you” may mean “I’m just nosy, bored and jealous” or “I have no life”. It could mean “You mean more to me than my job” or “I’ve cancelled all my plans for you”. And, all of these I have experienced. I thank to cosmos for my good sense to read the signs and know what the universe is telling me. It’s telling me to be ALIVE. It’s telling me of humanity. It’s tell me that I have every right to be a nice person and ask a question nicely, but I don’t have to be yelled at and try to make it right. There is no living by living in the realm of the oppressors. Oppression of my thyroid was beyond my control. And, oppression from humanity, economy, and such are also uncontrollable. But, we have the choice to walk away: middle finger up if you feel so obliged but I could care less. When I see a human “caring” out of self indulgence for the sake of whatever they stand to gain, I can not rush them to the ER. No. But, I can lessen the ripples of the echos in this web of life but walking the path of self awareness and as best open to freedoms as I can, with knowledge and love that soothe the tremors of humanity. And, I think the catalyst for those who betray, lie, or become aggressive and hurt in anyway is unhappiness. Now that is a dose of energy I do not wish to bath in. Instead, I embrace my shadows and weaknesses for what they are and hope they help me keep afloat on this river unwinding. Now, if my thyroid tries to drown me, well then I will go to the ER hehehehe

So, beyond that, I have been dreaming up art pieces and spending time with my little gymnasts and teaching the idea of virtue and morality. For like my 6 year old says “All things are imagination and are not real until we imagine them to be so.” And the imagination of love and war, make for interesting convo. Hm. Please respond to your theory on these two elements and their fabrication, for I must rest my weary head! Until soon 🙂

 

Lore

 

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Raising Magickal Power

Sometimes it’s not what we think or feel but HOW we think and feel that matters.  Do we respect our bodies?! And others?! Yes, you can ask too much of someone, manipulate obligation by guilt, only leading towards loss of personal energy and theirs!   It’s far more easy to allow yourself to be sad and follow your path, knowing there’s a light at the end of the tunnel than to fight it!  If you have a cold, stay in bed and  not pass the negative drainage around! All these splash in the pool of the collective. These being actions from our estimations of ourselves.  So, I suppose again… Selfish power may include raising light energy for yourself, but are you hacking a cough at you coworker while you meditate at your office?! I’m a big fan of consequence because variables and probability are so fascinating, in that; they never run out.  There’s always chance.  How do you Hap?!  Thus for my Happy New Year, I intend  to let the powers that be Hap within respect of others and healthy boundaries of course.  But, I want to see what HAPpens, when energy isn’t about self seeking light, but about simply being!  So, maybe I will do art and not mop today, or tend to my garden as the fridged sun tickles my skin!  And, my heart will not be worried about obligatory responses, but rather will sing, and I’m pretty sure consequently time will slow down enough so that I’ll have time for a quick mop.  Time lessens probability of energy raising when you delve into the sludge of fear or worry and tends to feel like you’re dragging along, but, yet, you feel you have no time!  The thing is there’s is no such thing as time! So, sing your heart and you’ll find the energy build and the time will soar at whatever pace you wish manifest allowing the Haps. Let’s see what’s in store this year!

Raising Magickal Power.


Equality

The equality of love is hate.  Or rather, you can not have one with out the other.  And, unfortunately, for some we experience true love and then are provoked into true hate.  After many months, I’m still finding out things that went on for the sake of a “name” or “business” that was pure betrayal.  Naturally, love would want to try, excuse, or talk it out: but when these things fail there’s either loss or war.  In my case, it’s neither.  I find that you can love what what meant to be with out changing what is and letting go of what was.  Was is all lies of love? No, it’s not because it never was.  But the actions of riding on the coat tails of this love is what I chose to let go.  It has awakened in me a type of realism that humanity is so technologically dependent words are so easily manipulated that humanity can make love or war with a single work.  Our legal system knows this is probably the only benefit for the sake of words.

INTERESTINGMEMORYAnd for that I’m grateful! Never the less what’s left after all this?  An action.  The moment of destruction or heart warming truth.  Still hearing things that have been done, have simply been a manner of weighing what to let go, what to love based on memory, and what to do.  The actions have purely been underhanded business deals, nothing more.  But, hey, gotta make money some how.  That’s just not my way.  This is action.  So, I chose to act to let go.  And, yet, I write this but only for the sake to make known the idea of memory.  Why? Because another betrayal bit of info found its way to my ears that had been listening to lisa thiel and aching due to the weather.  The most fascinating thing is that I have met a lot of amazing fun people I was told weren’t worth the time.  And so, flinging in my ears, this new bit of information, I realize that love is ever so blind, thus the excuses to grasp a moment against fear.  But, not even those involved in the web of my life could find any rhyme or reason for the bits of information floating in.  Not gossip, but action.  Action here means something concrete, the act of war, the act of love; the deliverance of such information to provoke another aspect of action: Truth.  And, the reason is because truth is a set of freedoms which begets action. We’re essentially action and consequence within the webs we weave and the Truth being relative to a set of morality and ethics, veiled.  But, when I met these worthless people who were lovely, I knew then that my action of love blinded me to the truth of my own set of morals and ethics.  Within business, I wouldn’t be under handed, you’d hear me for my beliefs, but those are the ethics that define me and cause my actions.   So who has more ethical and moral benefits; the lover or the fighter (and you can be both)? Should I denied participation? Kept everyone at arms length and let only those who are interesting enough to get anything from close to me?  Close enough to not care by action which would then naturally define the cyclical myriad of the human collective.  “Tis better to have love and lost than to not loved at all” or “what’s love got to do got do got do with it” hm. Well, when I see, hear, and watch the betrayal unwind before me, I realize, it doesn’t exist.  Whether you start a business with your spouse, by a car with your lover, or invest in property with a boyfriend, morality and ethics remain causing action provoking either love or war which then determines the morality of said person and…….. but I will also say this: war is blind too.  It can cause you to take over a nation and lose the respect of your people, it can cause you to cheat on your spouse and lose your wife but either sucker you wanna be… what do you stand do gain?  Nothing.  I realize the actions of only myself and the cycle of the path of morality and ethics that suit me willing to take on the consequences of my actions defining the aspect of me!  But in a world of change, loss cuts the web, retaliation burns it, but moving moves with it in now. as it always was.  Move with the flow of life and truths and standing up for the aspect of your beliefs will make a difference in the way things evolve.  Many speak of Kharma and forget about Dharma.  It is all now.  The unknown Truth, that which leads me.


Timing

When the time is right is it time to go? Is it time to stop? When is right? Do I have another hand elsewhere ready to say no now this time?! Oh wait that’s my hand. Experience in time is a wonderful,funny thing to my. My joy to live my time is right when? Whenever I say it is. When is it your time to do whatever?!

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In death I hope to enjoy the sweet taste of mg time. Is it up? Ill ask myself! Is it time now I become that which I am, spreading my rusted bones across the hazel skies. The sparkly bits of the child’s eye in the time of her first lick of a tasty treat to the first spark of hate. It was her time. A speck of moment. A circle wrapped in amber frazzled hair whipping at my face again and again. So cold. I’ll be with my bones until the end of now which hope and joy recedes to the back glasses of the rippling cocktail of life, spilling over, whilst those who embrace the death of their life take a sip and hope in the moment to realize they are a Phoenix.


Love and War. Self or Ish?

Eleven Things Every Witch Should Know.

so I’ve been reblogging a lot, because I’ve been learning a lot! I hope! But one thing is at the top of the bundle I’ve collected: love. And the fact you can not have love with out war.  And its this idea that gives humans the excuse to do horrid things, and, thus, the acts validate the statement. Not that I’m a saint, but not matter how I despise my husband, boyfriend, lover whatever there is an integral part of my soul that can not rape him with him my words; not to his face or to any others faces. The idea that a person could depreciate the value of another is beyond me because simply we are all connected. And by detrimental gossip,  these curses upon the path of our loved one is the very thing validates “war”.  Not that a liar is responsible for an abuser, but the ramifications of negative acts themselves melt into a pot of bubbling fury, into the collective. I for one try to balance my ying and yang. That is to befriend my shadow side and realize and work on that which is the “war” in me, rather than splatter myself in love light and unleash the stifled self on others.  This “love” and “war” could simply remain internal and introspective instead of violent reactions and loss of loved ones and slinging curses to those we feel justifiably harmed by the unsheathed self wielding a lance across the parking because for the millionth time our friend has called to cancel shopping plans. Maybe its the lance that made her pop a u turn?! Lol either way, if love and war were more internally handled with confidence and maturity, confidence and self love; we would need less love from other and therefore less war!!


Ying Yang and Chemistry

Always Touching

I’ve been thinking a lot about positive and negative energy in regards to science, spirituality, and humanity.  And I think there is  a significant path to follow when we consider a positive ion bonds with a negative ion.  I think the Ying Yang has the balance right.  It’s not about feeling good or feeling on the “right” path.  Rather, it’s being on the wrong path with the right attitude or the right path with the wrong attitude.  Which would you chose?  Then then of neutrons!  Now that gets me.  Is this simply the essence of life?! That which hold all together as energy flows, teaches, exchanges, and even changes! Perhaps! Consider this when working with earth elements, as they ionic charged particles mashed together to hold, to be pretty, and to have a function!


Weaving Webs

Shake my hand.  There you take my residue.  It’s unavoidable to not exchange energy by something as simple as eye contact.  It says “I see you”.  It validates a person.  Likewise, when we don’t look at a person or whatever cultural exchange of energy, we “offend” or “deny” the exchange.  But, is that so wrong?  I must say I do not like to be hugged by just anyone.  I’ve felt my energy being sucked out of me by certain feeders who lives only to make themselves more energetic than everyone else.  This is power lust essentially and lack of self.  My power is in me and nothing more or less.  But together we make a vibrating, extended web of energy that if not met with wisdom can harm or hinder someone.  Not just intentionally feeding on the energy in the room, but having a bad day and dumping on your coworker, or spouse.  Making promises you don’t keep, entering someones space after you have yet calmed down from an intense phone call, or manifesting an action with out thought or conviction cause a negative ripple of residue scattering down until it’s burnt out or builds up.  Who knows which.  That’s why it’s important we all take responsibility for our personal space, our thoughts and intentions, and how we look, touch, and think about other people.  Yes, maybe you wanted to buy your boss a coffee, but was it just to hope she’d burn her lip?!  Deep inside we need to ask ourselves “why am i doing this?” and also “why am i with these people”.  Do you want to be the one accepting the coffee?! Not me.  There are ways to protect yourself from these negative daggers through mental shields and simple energy blocks but when you do that you may miss some goodness too.  So discretion advised!

Family is irreplaceable but that doesn’t mean you have to spend everyday with them or week or month.  In today’s culture, we do not foster a familial setting.  We have severe individuality for the sake of freedom, which isn’t bad but we’ve lost the know how to honor culture, energy exchange, and the true meaning of the person from the inside as a being among other selves.  Rather we see them as a worker, or “It’s moms birthday I’ll give her a call”.  The residue of tradition lies in us all as we crave love from our family, friends, and others, whether we want to admit it or not.  This spherical web is more spread out from one “point” to another.  But since there is no such thing as a point, we must admit that this sphere is in fact pulling within itself because we yearn for the other “point”.

I’ve never agreed with the theory of relativity and that’s why. Space and time are not married.  We live outside time and are members of spacial bodies.  These bodies do pull for other bodies and are pulled by gravity, sure.  But when the coming together of these “points” of say a love, the result is one.  Theories go one from here as to what happens to matter.  I like to think that all these spread out “points” will be one in an unwebbed, mass of vibrating, energy of whatever residue is combined.

Because of this, rather becoming one, imploding into a worm hole, or exploding into beyond, we need to try and watch the residue! Check intention, take responsibility, create the whole self and not take from it.

I just did a cleansing ritual for this Harvest moon, and I realized how much residue of others I have been dragging around and pulling towards me while other of that nature gravitated and those wary enough repelled.  It wasn’t horrible residue.  Just a bit of sadness and a splash of insecurity.  And though I’m sure my journey will be littered with negative residue, this only balances the ying and yang.  We can not have positive with out a negative, folks!  But I don’t advise robbing a bank so a cop can gain glory through an arrest and declare yourself “well balanced”!  Uhm, no feel the vibrations of each action and you’ll see the human crisis of not addressing residue, and acting irrationally to rob a bank which creates a need for a residue cleaner.  Negative energy can be experienced in healthy life trials that do not have to send you to jail!  Though, some people may need this.  I would assume or it wouldn’t be happening.

So until we take responsibility for the residual affects we have in our thoughts, intentions, and actions.  We will continue to paw at the ball of yarn mewing for mothers milk.  Maybe we should call our moms!

Shared Moment


Life Art

“The Aesthetic Movement argued that art was not supposed to be utilitarian or useful in any practical sense. Instead, aesthetic experience is a fully autonomous and independent aspect of a human life. Thus, art should exist solely for its own sake” This was back post impressionism, pre-realism in thought.

Now after early 2000 revisit of traditional, simplistic art forms such as aesthetic for a

esthetics sake, “The aesthetic movement prompted Americans to make the mental leap that beautiful surroundings, in and of themselves, would elevate the soul. This, women, who shouldered primary responsibility for domestic life, enlisted aesthetic forces as they shaped their houses, thereby shaping their families and the entire society. Creating a beautiful home was a moral act. (Bonding with a type of utilitarianism) aesthetic came to symbolize connections between the sun, fire, and warmth – both physical and metaphorical”
– Karen Zukowski, “The Artistic Hearth: The Fireplace in the American Aesthetic Movement,” March 2008 issue of The Magazine AntiquesBeauty for beauty sake, in vain, has moved to collective consciousness creating and responding. Calls of the internal designs to express practical, functional art that transcend just looking pretty are being answered creatively. We find connections, actions, and depth in spirit, expression and other art forms like literature. Gone are the days of limiting, pretty art and welcomed are the bonding of humans, in love, through holistic needs calling for a response and answered through creativity and art for art! We are ALL art.
I’m thinking the age of technology brought us an overwhelming amount of artistic information that we couldn’t quite sift through, so instead we bonded together based on need and responded.  We don’t really NEED Shakespeare, nor do you have to be like him to be a writer!  What an interesting era full of appreciation for the working woman and man and earth!
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for a great example!

Essential

I can not find a good sample of essential oils!  I don’t want to spend the money for the very good, edible quality, but I don’t want the cheap kind you rub all over your body until someone comes and licks it off.  Any one out there with suggestions would be welcomed!  Oils are essential.  The construction of awareness changes when we use elements of the earth or energy.  Anything really affects us more than we let on, even other people.  That’s why it’s always important to choose your friends wisely. Though we don’t like to be lonely: it is okay to be alone.  Not that I hermit in my room messaging hot lavender into my calf muscles until I’m suddenly no longer lonesome.  Ah my oily friend! No.  Rather remember to explore, initiate, and protect your experience because everything has a consequence.  Consequence are the experience from choices, action, or expulsion of energy that never really happened with in the world of being.  It’s only a cognitive recollection once the energy is secreted.  The amount of displacement can never be equal to the moment it was before, so in the mass of things: we are an entire experience walking in consequences all day long.  We can not go back in time, and tomorrow will never comes, And, today isn’t happening: it is the consequence of the past and the hope of the future immeasurable, fleeting, and passive.  What surprises me is how we can be so aware in the moment though the moment, in out minds as now, never really comes to fruition. We never quite get “there”.  Alanis Morisette’s song “Incomplete” organizes this politely, beautifully, and deliciously, and, perhaps a bit oily. Anyway I’mi in need of some essential oils with energy properties that “capture” the essence of their energy in that moment and let them affect me.  Again, I will not be home alone in my room cryptically doing everything and nothing. I promise to take my oils about and wickedly entice people to share in the experience if only for the “moment”.  But like everyone else, I’ll find myself alone at night behind my eye lids waiting for the mourning; always waiting.  Though, I will be laugh in my belly behind plastered lips, slacken limbs and vein seeing eyes for the “moment” in my mind that is mine as it is never anyone’s the same.  And as the memory slowly slips from my well oiled brain into the nightless night, I’ll forget to remember and forget to reminded myself to recall leaving only the echo residue of a charging, chanting chuckle headed for a hollow.Image

Like water wishes well to our bodies, it evaporates into the air, brushing our skin or flowing out our insides leaving residue of what was never water all along.  We bathe daily in the coils of energy created by our words and wishes, if never for a moment but for all eternity.  I hope the oil separates my watered down, negative residuals and drags this polluted hope to the bottom of my have full cup.  And, my cup with be ever full for the moment. Help me paint my pillow with oils that my sense may chase the echo with a bit of delight!

Side note:A storm is coming to the DFW area.  It’s in the moon tonight! Grab your children!


As Above

The thing that baffles most people is simple why or reason. We usually can figure out how, or what, or who, but the sparsity of why beckons humans to run to a corner and demand an explanation.  Within the definition of many institutions we can find our corners more narrow or broad respectively,  never the less, humans place themselves in these corners whenever they ask why or desire a reason.  But, is it wrong?!  Surely, there are people who don’t dare as question what is.  They generally “go with the flow” and, often, are a bit dull.  They are what I call “room fillers” because they are important for the energy and essence of human beings as their sheer simplicity and naivety counter acts the luring harps chords of reason.  It is the desire and envy that become the definition of “wrong” or anti-human aspects.  And, I mean these aspects to be of their extremity.  Should naivety be questioned for it’s severity of participation in humanity it is only less disarming because it creates a type of anti-naivety by simply being what is.  Whereas, desire and jealousy in their aspects do create a sort of anti-desire, which is repulsion.  And, it is in the creation of the antithesis of the negative aspects of these human quests that provoke yet another possibly destructive aspect.  This is why reason becomes so delicious, because it can never be tasted even to the point of gluttony or negativity.  We can not know too much because we do not know too little.  It’s in the balance of creating our corners that keep us safe from the reality of how much we really don’t know.  And because of this, we’re often surprised by the dark aspects expressed by others because from our corner of knowledge we attempt to project and expect goodness and light therein.  When a girlfriend leaves for another or a child is abandoned, we stand in our corners and demand or cry out “why?!”.  “Why do you not love me?!” “Why god did you let this child experience this?!”  Most people find reason in a greater good, or higher purpose.  And this is precisely my point, that in knowing we find what we don’t know, or can’t know.  When a solution or institution or reason surface our awareness,  it will simply entertain more of what we don’t know.  Humans that live in the naive contentment of the unknown are not burdened by their inability to satiate any resonating desire or hunger for knowledge.  In their corners, the corners don’t exist or are entirely boxed.  It’s really a matter of knowing that there can not be corners or boxes within reason or the why, and, thus, in their simple existence they’re never panged to seek nourishment because they don’t feel their hunger.  It exists.  It is a natural part of humanity to wonder why and find reason, but I believe we can chose to entertain what we want in our corners or what may stab us in the back later.  The balancing line of the known and unknown, defined by the life and death of awareness, constructs the necessity for institutions, friendships, and hope.  All of which are below.

Not in this picture haha.  No, this is a picture of me wondering why the past never happened, and the future will never come.  I looked at my jewelry and the hole in my back and realized I had been in my own corner with blinders to truth.  But, there’s no excuse because I should have known that the natural order of things would lead the least expected.  Though if I were to have known what would have happened then there wouldn’t be aspect of the need to know.  With necessity, we are full and nothing needs us.

Oh my jewelry is at http://www.facebook.com/thelaltar

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