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Thyroid Storm

Well, this has been the most eventful new year ever! I didn’t declare any resolutions but opened my mind and heart to the haps of life in the “happy” of the new year. And so they began, I had a blockage and lost A LOT of weight. Concerned that the medications weren’t helping and possibly cancer, my husband takes me to the ER. There they find the blockage, and I don’t have cancer! This is a burden off my shoulders like no other and feel like I could dance and sing though I’m still gaining meat on my bones!

After this event, my thyroid must have decided my body needed help and began to go into 6th gear. Yes. Thyroid Storm. For a few days, I thought perhaps it was just weakness from the blockage, until it became too much. Thankfully my doctor let me see him quickly, and with out hassle and gave me the treatment for the Thyroid Storm. Why not rush to the ER since it can be fatal you may be wondering, well I haven’t insurance! With in 48 hrs of thyroid suppression, I could move again! Think! Feel! Smile! I was so shocked that such a thing as a thyroid could, BOOM, freak out and hitch hike on a roller coast I’ve not been riding.

So, during these times you find out who your true friends are. You find out that “I care for you” may mean “I’m just nosy, bored and jealous” or “I have no life”. It could mean “You mean more to me than my job” or “I’ve cancelled all my plans for you”. And, all of these I have experienced. I thank to cosmos for my good sense to read the signs and know what the universe is telling me. It’s telling me to be ALIVE. It’s telling me of humanity. It’s tell me that I have every right to be a nice person and ask a question nicely, but I don’t have to be yelled at and try to make it right. There is no living by living in the realm of the oppressors. Oppression of my thyroid was beyond my control. And, oppression from humanity, economy, and such are also uncontrollable. But, we have the choice to walk away: middle finger up if you feel so obliged but I could care less. When I see a human “caring” out of self indulgence for the sake of whatever they stand to gain, I can not rush them to the ER. No. But, I can lessen the ripples of the echos in this web of life but walking the path of self awareness and as best open to freedoms as I can, with knowledge and love that soothe the tremors of humanity. And, I think the catalyst for those who betray, lie, or become aggressive and hurt in anyway is unhappiness. Now that is a dose of energy I do not wish to bath in. Instead, I embrace my shadows and weaknesses for what they are and hope they help me keep afloat on this river unwinding. Now, if my thyroid tries to drown me, well then I will go to the ER hehehehe

So, beyond that, I have been dreaming up art pieces and spending time with my little gymnasts and teaching the idea of virtue and morality. For like my 6 year old says “All things are imagination and are not real until we imagine them to be so.” And the imagination of love and war, make for interesting convo. Hm. Please respond to your theory on these two elements and their fabrication, for I must rest my weary head! Until soon 🙂

 

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Buddha in a Bottle

So, I’ve been working tirelessly to find a delicious recipe to put in these glass buddha bottles:

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Yule Love

 

 

 

Ok, I’ve finally got it!  And it’s a beautiful blood red perfects for diffusing, even boiling over the stove, or collecting!  It’s not edible in anyway so I’m not responsible if you try something wild with this!  But what a contrasting piece!!!  I’m going to post it on ebay for 10$ free shipping and wait to blend the mixture until it’s ordered but spread the word about this guy here!  To any organic lovers of religious collision, this would be a fun gift!

 

 

 

So I decided to see what exacting the ingredients looked like in the bottle and here it is!  Strained from all the herbs and what not, this is what’s inside my dear Buddha.   Well, go on go get some on ebay!

The Inside

The Inside


Timing

When the time is right is it time to go? Is it time to stop? When is right? Do I have another hand elsewhere ready to say no now this time?! Oh wait that’s my hand. Experience in time is a wonderful,funny thing to my. My joy to live my time is right when? Whenever I say it is. When is it your time to do whatever?!

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In death I hope to enjoy the sweet taste of mg time. Is it up? Ill ask myself! Is it time now I become that which I am, spreading my rusted bones across the hazel skies. The sparkly bits of the child’s eye in the time of her first lick of a tasty treat to the first spark of hate. It was her time. A speck of moment. A circle wrapped in amber frazzled hair whipping at my face again and again. So cold. I’ll be with my bones until the end of now which hope and joy recedes to the back glasses of the rippling cocktail of life, spilling over, whilst those who embrace the death of their life take a sip and hope in the moment to realize they are a Phoenix.


Ying Yang and Chemistry

Always Touching

I’ve been thinking a lot about positive and negative energy in regards to science, spirituality, and humanity.  And I think there is  a significant path to follow when we consider a positive ion bonds with a negative ion.  I think the Ying Yang has the balance right.  It’s not about feeling good or feeling on the “right” path.  Rather, it’s being on the wrong path with the right attitude or the right path with the wrong attitude.  Which would you chose?  Then then of neutrons!  Now that gets me.  Is this simply the essence of life?! That which hold all together as energy flows, teaches, exchanges, and even changes! Perhaps! Consider this when working with earth elements, as they ionic charged particles mashed together to hold, to be pretty, and to have a function!


Cursed

So I have been doing much research on the aspect of a curse. I did dive into the practice of blood basting or offering up first burns. No, I stuck to the basic etymology and ideology of humans relationship to a curse. It’s very simple. The word originates whenever someone says something against someone else. That’s why scholars have trouble finding the origin of this word and any other meaning that ill, anger intent or situation. What matters most is not a curse but words. I used to laugh at the whole bibles “name is claim it” and “no don’t let the devil hear you!” And now thought I still think this is just one very simple aspect to use fear to deter people from proclaiming any malicious words or disdain expression. So, that’s simple. If a guy in my dorm keeps leaving his wet clothes in the wash and I say “damn it! I hope he get what comin to him!!” You can best believe that is a curse. What if he has a legit reason?! Like slippery finger disease?! Now if I were to say “damn! I hope he gets what he deserves” this isn’t a curse. Because, well, maybe you just sent out energy to assist the doctors in making some super finger healing ointment! This may be what he deserves! My anger release would be nothing more then a charge of negative energy in the room, and probably assist in helping me be bitter about laundry etiquette. This should show that simply naming and claiming doesn’t have quite the impact as one would hope. This is because of intent and often more than anything; wording. The idea of cursing someone or something is a blast or thought out act of distinctly intense energy. “I am so ugh that I’m gonna….!” While declaring “I’m gonna be rich!” To my coven, congregation, or nudist group does quite have to same punch. The receivers of the proclamation are many, where as with curses and blessing at times too!, it is charged to one distinct origin. It’s not going to happen that people will stand in a congregation cursing each other but they would stand and proclaim. And this sends energy into the action to BEGIN manifestations but the rest is a lengthy process of commitment, intent, and drive to work the energy to the cause or outcome. To be rich, you may simply need to work really really hard. As you do this thought the energy would build and help you if you continued to work in such manner.
Now I could imagine a street riot of people strewing streams of curses across the street, or perhaps a fight in the hall, or the abusive husband; but then again we see the intensity of this action, this energy.
I read an article “is it worth to curse” and the author says that if her sister were rape she surely would curse the perp. Because the damage is already done (the worry of curse 1 and you’ll be 3x cursed back doesn’t apply then), it seemed she denoted it a type of retribution. And I agree.
I recently had a friend ask me if I did dark arts or black magic or whatever she said. She asked if I worked with curses. And I said “well I’m sure I’ve been mad enough at someone I’ve probably said something I shouldn’t have. Don’t we all?!” And she said “no real curses what do you think about them” so this encouraged me to research. I think she felt someone had put some random curse on her, but I wanted to ask her if she knew the definition of kharma. An even dharma! I’m of the school that if you do things knowingly hurting others, live life ego lead (which is easy to do aahhhh), or live a life as if people owe you (this often is the relationship with jealousy, selfishness, and feeling rejected: these people love to do things for people but are unaware that the expect something in return and when they don’t get it they feel rejected and this insues drama if they’re unbalance so as they can communicate their expectations), you will attract negativity to you. Doing positive thing attract negative ions to you but because we may be balanced and confident we become merely a conduit of a small displacement of Ionic energy rather than having bad thin happening unusually too often. These negative ions are transformed by spirit, too, to teach us lesson, manifest a dark or light side of us we didn’t know we had, and much more. Ying and yang. If I bask in a bubble of love juice all day long I’d drown in my own lack of need for humanity. But, we are really humans and capable of saying things that have impact, doing things to change lives, and more!
What I learned about curses is simply this: we all do it, it nothing less than saying something in the heat of the moment, and a term used to scare people away from antiChristian studies. Curses and the antithesis of blessings. And that’s about it! If blessing is a good word. There may be a better word!

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So, I have had a flood of artist implosion and what seems to defy me is time! I need to stop making things and just add them to the store 🙂

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He’s wearing the ear cuff! Hahahaha what a blessed little beaver for being my model today! Check out my site! As I work on it more tomorrow, mr, Beaver may make his modeling debut!
Altar L


Altar L

So excited about the launch of my website!  I can’t believe this is finally coming into fruition!  As I sit here with the common cold, ever so common I am, I feel a bit of joy rippling across the main page of my spirit or life with this experience!  Winter bearings bring abundance, and I look forward to its production being furthered then! I think it’s amazing when simple things cause joy and generally good feelings.  We have been so lost in this age of technology, everything within the American mandate to have! Well, a lot of us want to give, and that’s always refreshing!  In the entanglement of jealousy and envy, weaves a web of superficial success and loss.  I want to span out, even if unsuccessfully, and document this web I weave, ever so delicate.  Going back to the simple need of human kind, I excitedly explore purpose, passion, and pleasantries.  If only for tomorrow, then so be it but for today I will dance bare backed on a horse through the wild, winded night! Hm, and that would be interesting to dissect “what is success”! Until next time then 🙂

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The Spiral Web

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Weaving Webs

Shake my hand.  There you take my residue.  It’s unavoidable to not exchange energy by something as simple as eye contact.  It says “I see you”.  It validates a person.  Likewise, when we don’t look at a person or whatever cultural exchange of energy, we “offend” or “deny” the exchange.  But, is that so wrong?  I must say I do not like to be hugged by just anyone.  I’ve felt my energy being sucked out of me by certain feeders who lives only to make themselves more energetic than everyone else.  This is power lust essentially and lack of self.  My power is in me and nothing more or less.  But together we make a vibrating, extended web of energy that if not met with wisdom can harm or hinder someone.  Not just intentionally feeding on the energy in the room, but having a bad day and dumping on your coworker, or spouse.  Making promises you don’t keep, entering someones space after you have yet calmed down from an intense phone call, or manifesting an action with out thought or conviction cause a negative ripple of residue scattering down until it’s burnt out or builds up.  Who knows which.  That’s why it’s important we all take responsibility for our personal space, our thoughts and intentions, and how we look, touch, and think about other people.  Yes, maybe you wanted to buy your boss a coffee, but was it just to hope she’d burn her lip?!  Deep inside we need to ask ourselves “why am i doing this?” and also “why am i with these people”.  Do you want to be the one accepting the coffee?! Not me.  There are ways to protect yourself from these negative daggers through mental shields and simple energy blocks but when you do that you may miss some goodness too.  So discretion advised!

Family is irreplaceable but that doesn’t mean you have to spend everyday with them or week or month.  In today’s culture, we do not foster a familial setting.  We have severe individuality for the sake of freedom, which isn’t bad but we’ve lost the know how to honor culture, energy exchange, and the true meaning of the person from the inside as a being among other selves.  Rather we see them as a worker, or “It’s moms birthday I’ll give her a call”.  The residue of tradition lies in us all as we crave love from our family, friends, and others, whether we want to admit it or not.  This spherical web is more spread out from one “point” to another.  But since there is no such thing as a point, we must admit that this sphere is in fact pulling within itself because we yearn for the other “point”.

I’ve never agreed with the theory of relativity and that’s why. Space and time are not married.  We live outside time and are members of spacial bodies.  These bodies do pull for other bodies and are pulled by gravity, sure.  But when the coming together of these “points” of say a love, the result is one.  Theories go one from here as to what happens to matter.  I like to think that all these spread out “points” will be one in an unwebbed, mass of vibrating, energy of whatever residue is combined.

Because of this, rather becoming one, imploding into a worm hole, or exploding into beyond, we need to try and watch the residue! Check intention, take responsibility, create the whole self and not take from it.

I just did a cleansing ritual for this Harvest moon, and I realized how much residue of others I have been dragging around and pulling towards me while other of that nature gravitated and those wary enough repelled.  It wasn’t horrible residue.  Just a bit of sadness and a splash of insecurity.  And though I’m sure my journey will be littered with negative residue, this only balances the ying and yang.  We can not have positive with out a negative, folks!  But I don’t advise robbing a bank so a cop can gain glory through an arrest and declare yourself “well balanced”!  Uhm, no feel the vibrations of each action and you’ll see the human crisis of not addressing residue, and acting irrationally to rob a bank which creates a need for a residue cleaner.  Negative energy can be experienced in healthy life trials that do not have to send you to jail!  Though, some people may need this.  I would assume or it wouldn’t be happening.

So until we take responsibility for the residual affects we have in our thoughts, intentions, and actions.  We will continue to paw at the ball of yarn mewing for mothers milk.  Maybe we should call our moms!

Shared Moment


Jewelry for the Full Moon

Skin is our fabric. Natures canvas.

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Metals of the earth, paint my flesh’s delicious night, as I breathe expanding the delicate red vines to the sounds moon waves varnishing my salty back!!!


Essential

I can not find a good sample of essential oils!  I don’t want to spend the money for the very good, edible quality, but I don’t want the cheap kind you rub all over your body until someone comes and licks it off.  Any one out there with suggestions would be welcomed!  Oils are essential.  The construction of awareness changes when we use elements of the earth or energy.  Anything really affects us more than we let on, even other people.  That’s why it’s always important to choose your friends wisely. Though we don’t like to be lonely: it is okay to be alone.  Not that I hermit in my room messaging hot lavender into my calf muscles until I’m suddenly no longer lonesome.  Ah my oily friend! No.  Rather remember to explore, initiate, and protect your experience because everything has a consequence.  Consequence are the experience from choices, action, or expulsion of energy that never really happened with in the world of being.  It’s only a cognitive recollection once the energy is secreted.  The amount of displacement can never be equal to the moment it was before, so in the mass of things: we are an entire experience walking in consequences all day long.  We can not go back in time, and tomorrow will never comes, And, today isn’t happening: it is the consequence of the past and the hope of the future immeasurable, fleeting, and passive.  What surprises me is how we can be so aware in the moment though the moment, in out minds as now, never really comes to fruition. We never quite get “there”.  Alanis Morisette’s song “Incomplete” organizes this politely, beautifully, and deliciously, and, perhaps a bit oily. Anyway I’mi in need of some essential oils with energy properties that “capture” the essence of their energy in that moment and let them affect me.  Again, I will not be home alone in my room cryptically doing everything and nothing. I promise to take my oils about and wickedly entice people to share in the experience if only for the “moment”.  But like everyone else, I’ll find myself alone at night behind my eye lids waiting for the mourning; always waiting.  Though, I will be laugh in my belly behind plastered lips, slacken limbs and vein seeing eyes for the “moment” in my mind that is mine as it is never anyone’s the same.  And as the memory slowly slips from my well oiled brain into the nightless night, I’ll forget to remember and forget to reminded myself to recall leaving only the echo residue of a charging, chanting chuckle headed for a hollow.Image

Like water wishes well to our bodies, it evaporates into the air, brushing our skin or flowing out our insides leaving residue of what was never water all along.  We bathe daily in the coils of energy created by our words and wishes, if never for a moment but for all eternity.  I hope the oil separates my watered down, negative residuals and drags this polluted hope to the bottom of my have full cup.  And, my cup with be ever full for the moment. Help me paint my pillow with oils that my sense may chase the echo with a bit of delight!

Side note:A storm is coming to the DFW area.  It’s in the moon tonight! Grab your children!